I’m doing this blog in order to show people whats going on in my head and to find other people who think like me. I’m not seeing any of this, i honestly think my depression is much more than just being depressed. There are different aspects of it, theres, me hating myself, the way i look, how i act, how i speak, how i feel… Then there is my hate for the world and everyone around me, where i just want to be on my own, even looking out my bedroom window, seeing the trees, people walking past infuriates me, sometimes i can’t even look at the television because i can’t stand the sight of people, there is also the anxiety, panic attacks, me actually being scared of stepping out the door, because i am worried everyone i see will shun me away and hate me and the last one i can think of at this very moment in time is part of my head where i do not see the point in anything, i don’t see the point in existing, not just me though, i don’t see the point in life as a whole, because, everything ends… right? Everything.

The great thing about this blog is, i know people are either going to read and ignore the things i say, don’t look at it at all or I’ll get abuse from angry anons.

This is purely for me and me only, writing is the only thing that doesn’t make me angry, it makes me feel quite good actually. So as i am typing this now, i have a smile on my face, i have no idea why because i still have copious amount of hatred for the world.

Thank you for not reading :)